The life I built
I spent over a decade inside global corporate at Shell. Acquisitions, supply chains, new energies. Qatar, the UK, the Netherlands, the United States. The apartment with the view. The career with momentum, the reputation, the pay and the title. Performance reviews that read the way I had been taught to want them to read, and the political capital to steer my next international assignment.
From the outside, it looked exactly as I had said I wanted.
Inside, the gap between the life I had and the life I actually wanted kept widening. Sharp in the boardroom, drained at home. Competent and ahead in every room, absent from my own life. I knew the feeling well enough to manage it. I had no language for what to do with it.
That gap is the territory I work in now.